I have not been writing. Like, at all. I don’t have a blog anymore, and I can’t seem to push my fingers to the keys like I once could.
Maybe I’m just not trying hard enough.
I have plenty of thoughts, but they are jumbled; all over the place, angry, dissatisfied, confused, lacking in eloquence.
Totally had feelings like this before my birthday. When I realized that my GRE scores were going to expire next year (so its now or never for this phd), learned of some issues with my family, and realized that I wasn’t growing in the direction I wanted to at my job or in my finances, I decided to make a huge shift and moved back to my parents. I had to really do some soul-searching and I know this is right for me. I suggest you do the same. Can you change your job or position there? Can you make a 5 year plan and list specific steps to get there? So even if you stay in the same place for awhile, your passion will be renewed just knowing that you have goals. Have you made a list of your blessings in awhile? How about for every day until your birthday you write at least one positive thing in your life or one accomplishment. You can put them in a jar, or on a wall, and reflect on all of them at once on your birthday. (heh, I might have to do that one myself and reflect once a month or something). Have you prayed or done some kind of spiritual activity? While 25 is almost ominous (the BIG 2-5), we’re still really young, still have so many more years of acceptable mistakes, and are sexy beasts… So, um, yeah. Chin up. We got this.
Your encouragement was SO needed this evening. I love the idea of writing blessings/accomplishments down and putting them in a jar. I looked through your posts (I haven’t been on here in forever) and I saw your post about quitting your job and moving back home. I sincerely applaud you for making that kind of decision. While at this time moving back home isn’t the right option for me (though I’d take the “woe is me/I’m too old for this” feelings in order to live rent free, shoot), the job thing is going to have to give. Something has got to change because I’m not moving in any way in a direction in which I want to. I feel like my life has become stagnant and that’s not cool with me.I’ve been praying, soul searching, and doing a ton of thinking.
And you are right! We are young and sexy and will reach our goals! Thank you for your encouragement :)